I went from being someone I consider to be pretty smart and knowing my job to being the clueless chick on the block. The trouble is that I'm smart enough to know how much I don't know. Fitness is the furthest thing from my mind right now except for the nagging knee pain in my right knee. I can no longer squat or kneel without pain. I thought I overdid it playing racquetball but while it's not as pronounced as it used to be, it feels like it's gradually getting a little bit worse, just like I am gradually getting fatter. :( I want to go to the doctor, but I don't want to just hear that it's my weight. This change in job has affected my confidence in general. My antianorexia is on a temporary hold.
We were going to book a cruise in June, but now we've had some unexpected expenses and we probably need to hang on to that money a little longer. I was going to use the cruise as motivation to get a fitness plan in gear. Can you tell that I'm feeling a little sorry for myself right now? I should be happy that I have a job and that I have reasonably good health. My health problems are self-imposed.
Readers, I tell you what...Jason has been playing racquetball in the morning before work. I will have him wake me too and I'll do the Wii active tomorrow morning....I almost promise.
Jennifer,
ReplyDeleteDon't give up! You can do it! It's not easy, in fact it sucks 99% of the time but I know you can do it! Hang in there an I love reading your blog!
Jennifer, you are doing one of the hardest jobs out there...a friend of mine began teaching last year and struggled thru the beginning, but by the end of the year she was doing great, and is LOVING it this year...you'll not only make it, you'll become great at what you do because you CARE, if you didn't you wouldn't be consumed with thoughts of it when you're not there. As far as excercise I have to admit that with all the changes in my own life I don't know if I would have made it to the gym if I wasn't teaching a class. First things first go to the doctor and have your knee checked out...when I'm feeling down I get on the scale backwards, so I don't have to have reality shoved in my face...Good luck.
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